longg DAY (:

these few days, ive been busy with homework, this and that.
ive been thinking alot on friendships, relationships after that incident too.

today there was belaying lesson, quite fun (:
i was kind of down when someone i wanted was not there, while someone i didnt wanted was there. so anyway, i just loved belaying (:

he han is down with fever today T.T GET WELL SOON BEST FRIEND! hope you get better before the camp (:


i akways thought you knew what was right.
just because of your innocence,
i thought it was a coincidence,
i thought it will never happened,
but it still did.

you make things feel alright,
but no matter how hard you try,
its still broken,
it cant be fix.
it cant repair and make it perfect again.

its good to be friends.
but its not good to be the best kind,
or the perfect one.
there will be always disappointment,
quarrels,
misunderstandings,
or even obstacles that cant be cleared even if you're given a million years.

its a commitment thing,
its not what you want.

im tired of being the bad person,
i just wanted to be who i am,
who i really am,
be with who i really feel like being with,
not the bad person who always break relationships,
its tiring,
its painful,
its what you will never expect it to be.

i saw and went through so much with you guys.
im still not tired,
im still on fire for you guys,
love is still there.
thanks charmaine for being there with me,
even if that was such a short time
i feel right,
i feel safe.

now, i just want to be at the right place,
with the right people,
not perfect people.
i want to truth,
not doubts.

thanks lixuan for your concern,
im truly touched by you.
i really know who i am.

i dont want to be tied down by doubts,
or lies,
i hope it will be cleared up.
i hope im out of the bad zone.
im into who i am.