DAY.

hello to whoever who comes to my blog.
(:

actually cant smile right now.
feeling both bad&sad.
hm, no explanation to it.

today, just realised something so obvious yet confusing.
hm, no explanation to it either.

and with regards to the tagboard.
darryl (as in darryl chia)
he han as in my best friend,
so no harm.
dont get upset with each other even if you dont know each other.
hahhas (:
thanks he han BEST FRIEND and darrylchia DIDI for tagging.
of course, the lame&retarded lixuan too.
and my darling sw (:

shall end here.
going to do the retarded d&t work.
dammit.

you are my friend,
yet you seem not.
i dont like to spend time with you anymore,
you're more like a stranger now.
friends stand up for each other,
but you dont.
and i dont know why.

words cant descibe my feelings.
its too indirect.
i hope i can find someone to talk to,
but i cant find any.
there will always be distractions.

some gone, some STAY PUT.

hello people!

currently not in the mood to talk.
my mom thinks i should study after i wake up.
but i want to watch ko one.
so who's right?

dammit.

two common tests are over. two are left.
study study study.

so many things happening.
telling them briefly, as i need to talk it out.

1) ccas are on friday this week&next week, from 4-6pm. then mrs sherri dont allow me to leave early while mrs lim allow. what the hell. so how to leave early next week?

2) dad dont want me to skip tuition, ask me go for make-up lesson. i refuse, cause i dont want to stay in a bloody strange classroom for two hours.

3) make-up lessons are on saturday, which will clash with my cg time. then got scolding from cgl, dad, mom. dammit, damn irritating uh.

4) piano theory homework not done yet. dammit.

5) something's been bothering me, tried to talk to some people. but nobody really cares, im at lost now.

6) getting pressured alot. i dont know what to do. dont feel like studying.

7) getting so stressed, feel like scolding vulgar, but wont.

8) theres so many things in me, dont know how to express. kena scolding like everyday. uck! why are there so many problems?

whatever. terrible life for now.

BYEBYE.
twoniners, good luck for CTs.

disappoinment. WHATS MORE.

today's been a bad day.
i just cant understand anymore. what to do?
like my fault, but it looks like her fault. but it seems their fault.
just being sarcastic.

told something to someoneS. ohmigosh. i pleaded with someone today, hope he will really do me a favour. THANK YOU (:

thats all. back to studying (:

why must you be this way?
why must you get so easily influenced?
do you know i really trusted you so much?
do you know i was really disappointed
when you became this way?
can i get back the old you?

its really sad for me to know,
that my friends are different people
from the way i know them before.

you're still so mean.
nothing changed you.
whats wrong with you?
why do you have to talk so much rubbish?
why do you have to say those unnecessary words
that really hurt people?
dont you really care?
are you that kind of person?
you just like to enjoy and joke,
without thinking twice.
you will realise some day then.
just thanks for ruining much friendships.

TESTSssss

HELLO PEOPLE (:

hahhas. so many tests yet still got time to post.
i feel SO GUILTY (:

for the sake of some people; this is the test schedule.

MONDAY - english CT, math class test. [OVER]
TUESDAY - lit class test, science class test. [OVER]
WEDNESDAY - D&T
THURSDAY - math class test.
FRIDAY - science CT.

NEXT WEEK.
MONDAY - math CT.
FRIDAY - geography.

heeehs. twoniners, good luck. i think we all need them (:

BYEBYE (:
going to do d&t work now.

i really hope awkwards will stop.
how i wish what i wish will come true.
initiative is very important.
hoping for a miracle.

sorry if i really hurt you in a manner.
but i cant get myself to tell you everything.
you dont seem you anymore.
im sorry.

have you ever thought of the person?
have you ever put yourself in her shoes?
can you stop being a bitch?
can you stop joking without thinking of the feelings of others?
its getting too much.
thanks alot.

THURS&FRI

HELLO!

happy valentines.
got MANY chocolates.
THANKS PEOPLE (:

yesterday was thursday. valentines day.
went out with CYRIL and SHUWEN =/
slacking, shop abit, talk ALOT at tampines mall.

SOMEONE wants me to blog this:
i wanted her to take bus with me.
but someone snatched her from me.
she wants me to feel jealous.

today no piano (:
change to sunday ):
tuition..
blah blah.

hmm, stop here.
FULLSTOP (:

ignoring.
keeping secrets.
bitchiness.
awkwards.

HAPPY VALENTINESSXX

hello people (:

HAPPY VALENTINES.

heesss, so sad. nobody spending with me uhh (:
only two people ask me out.

1) ailing jiejie (ask me go buy presents)
2) shu wen (being forced to, cause dont want get scolded)

hahhhas. PATHETIC.

oh yes, thinking of pathetic, i think of LAURA.
OMG, she spent like two hours++ to buy only EMPTY boxes. dammit!
make me, lixuan and celeste walk around whitesands like a complete retard.

thats it.
im going to listen to songs now.
BYEBYE (:

i dont know if the word bastard suits you,
but i just want to let you know.
you are killing somebody's heart now.
why involve vulgars?

CNY!

HAPPY CNY PEOPLE!

going to be busy these few days..

hahhas. im so happy I WATCH FINISH XFAMILY!
but nothing to watch now..
bullfighting abit boring eh.

there's so many homework to do..
no mood to do homework uh xD

shu wen left to malaysia!
she ask me to miss her..
hahhas, i got miss you lah (:

thats it.
& i have updated my blog songs. i hope you like it (:

BYEBYE! HAPPY CNY!

nobody ever blamed you.
me neither.
im sorry if i used the harsh tone on you.
but i hope it made a difference on you.
i hope you will understand better.

i really hope you are okay now.

when you're really okay,
stop blaming yourself,
you are always welcome to come into my arms,
and give me a big warm hug.

i love you girlfriend.